It's not getting what we want, wanting what can't have, wanting things to be different from how they are that make us build up this inner resistence to what is. I have been doing a bit of that lately, and quite a bit of it today. It's been a frownful day. And by 6pm I was bloody exhausted from nothing... Now I know my energy drain is nothing but my own mind... Am not managing it all that well.

On top of that I became so acutely aware of the masses of negativity around me. Who is actually really ALIVE out there? Really JOYFUL for no particular reason? Really just there to smile at the stranger, and not just so bloody worried about all the little and the big things going on in their own lives? Worry over here is a state of being... Goodness me. I was quite overwhelmed. And at the same time I must acknowlede what I see in the mirror of life... My own negativity magnified... That was a mouthful a bit bigger than I could chew... At least I didn't freak out, which is what i have been doing lately each time I come upon such a realisation...

And so the journey continues...