suddenly there's silence
or finally i am aware of it
aware of what has always been
expanse
suddenly i see all time and space spread out to every side of me

i feel the urge to be afraid
i see the hooks the world is hanging on
i hang not on those hooks
still feel the urge to be afraid

the urge to be connected to the known
the unknown always beckoning
the urge to be like everybody else
feeling safe and fitting in
the fear compounded by the fear and the desire to abandon what i am
to crack, to lose the identity i thought i did not have...